Empty jar of peanut butter.

Last time I wrote excitedly about how we gonna try out some things, but now, lets say, the excitement has been overrun with sheer frustration. I was feeling good after some test runs and we though: 'OK, lets see what we can do by adding a bit of a power block into mix for the races...' It did start well. Too well maybe? Then, I dunno if it was my mistake or just plain bad luck, I started to feel sore throat and cold. It may be that we took it too deep and I became vulnerable for a cold. It also may be that I simply caught it by a chance. Either way, this sucks. The races are looming and I'm lost in the good old middle ground. You know – you feel okay, but not perfect, but then on the bike you are way out of it. In a way, I would happily (not that happily really, but that's entirely different story) rest it away, but the as said the races are looming and we once made a decision to throw in a bit of specific training and see how it goes.

Then again, if you can't do it. Don't necessarily try. Like in many card games the early wins and gains, may prove to be significant losses at the end. I'm tempted to do some rethinking of the near future, as it may not simply make any sense to keep on digging the power, which currently is not there. It's kind of like empty jar of peanut butter – you just keep scratching the bottom hoping to maybe find some left overs and at the same time realize that there isn't any. Still pretty much similar solution goes for the training and the peanut butter. And there are always new races to look forward to – and it is not likely that Sainsbury's would run out of peanut butter. Also, if necessary you can replace the peanut butter with, for example, rasberry jam. Training wise, do what you can do rather than keep desperately trying hit the powers. In short, we are talking about adaptability and flexibility.

To follow my own guidelines I'm gonna make sure the peanut butter is really empty and replace it with jam. Then, do my mobility exercise plus uni work for the rest of the day or days, which helps with my training in the future. Still, this sucks. It is such a beautiful day and I can't do what I'd like to. But that's thinking in real short term. To keep things realistic, I do like to remind myself of the bigger picture and my long term plan – and dream big.